I feel like I’m sixteen again – and that’s not a good thing for me; at sixteen I was watching all my friends maturing ahead of me.
Knowing I was a late bloomer, as my mother used to call it, was of no comfort at all with my best friend getting everything at fourteen – her waistline, her breasts, her periods – while I still looked like an anxious, Amazonian eight-year-old at sixteen.
I learned then that it’s no good trying to rush things (stuffing bras comes to mind). It wasn’t going to happen until it happened.
Enter me – now!
I’m a long way from sixteen, but I find myself again watching from the sidelines as people around me grow, win publishing contracts and enjoy writing success.
I know my time to bosom – I mean blossom – will come (and padded bras are definitely NOT the answer this time either) but in the mean time I’m feeling…anxious.
The good news is that I know I have grown in many ways.
How do I know this? Because I no longer feel the urge to write mean comments on the toilet door about all the big-busted girls – LOL.
I’m seriously thrilled to pieces for anyone who achieves publishing success (it’s bloody hard to do) and I’m encouraged knowing that it does happens to lovely, everyday people — like me. I know this because I met one of those lovely people today in our newly-formed mid-north coast writers’ group. Karlene Lane has just secured a contract with Allen & Unwin and I’m really looking forward to sharing her journey.
As for me, I just have to be patient. It WILL happen.
Hi Jenn,
Sorry I missed the meeting yesterday. Definitely next month. 🙂
Suzanne 🙂
YAY Jenn on the newly formed group. Face to face groups are great. As for sitting on the side lines waiting, yes know that feeling so well.
Sandie
Jenn,
you will make it.
And I think it's okay to be a little envious of our writer friends who have/are making it. It keeps us going, it lights the path, and it gives us that Meg Ryan feeling "I'll have what she's having."
Diane
Jenn,
The Romaus posts sometimes get to me too. But I suppose that's part of the reason it's there – to share your good news with like-minded writers.
I think you've got to put it into perspective and look at what you've achieved so far this year.
Amazing.
Shayne
Thx guys. Di – LOL "I'll have what she's having." I am feeling inspired right now thanks to you all.
hi Jenn I've only just found your blog.
I understand the mixed feelings when you hear call stories- went through them myself. The thing is once you get the call the people you most want to tell first are the friends on your loops and at writers groups because you know they understand how long and hard you've worked to get there.
I know you'll get there- you have the fire!! I can't think of anyone I want to share my journey with more than you guys so thank you so much for your support.
xxx